what have I done?
So here's the thing. I have no idea how I will handle the demands of all this learning, but I've been working to prepare academically and also in terms of time management. A lot of things are going to have to be adjusted in our household--and in my head--to make this possible. Each course is slated at 16 hours per week but anecdotal evidence suggests that MST209 needs more like 25 hours a week, and I know in my heart that I'm going to find it difficult because maths doesn't come naturally to me. I am mustering all my powers, but my powers are feeling weedy and insignificant just now.
I've come off Twitter. I'm on Facebook mostly because there are course groups there where I can interact with other students.
I feel like I should wave a little flag and say, 'I'm still a writer,' but right now I've got to do this other thing pretty much exclusively. It would have been great if I could have juggled writing with part-time study and raising the family, but it hasn't worked out that way. I hate having to see my writing as an income stream (or not). These studies will eventually get me a job, and then I can go back to my former attitude of who fucking cares what the industrial superfungus wants?
I've still got half an SF novel that...what can I say about it? I think I can safely say it's unlike anything else out there. I want to do it justice.
I'm scared. Did I mention that?
We're just about to leave for the coast for a few days. I'm not taking the computer, so forgive me if any comments go unanswered?